Heart and Sword -- New Mexico Backpacking Retreat

Deposit and Service Agreement

  • Trip: Heart and Sword men's backpacking retreat -- New Mexico (Pecos Wilderness, Sangre de Cristo Mountains)
  • Dates: July 27 -- August 1, 2026
  • Operator: Heart and Sword LLC, a Texas limited liability company. Trip led by Conor McMillen.
  • Deposit: $500 USD
  • Version: v1.0 (2026-05-29)

1. What this agreement is

By paying the $500 deposit to reserve a spot on the New Mexico Backpacking Retreat (the "Trip"), you ("Participant") and Heart and Sword LLC ("H&S") agree to the terms below.

This agreement covers the deposit transaction, the application process that follows, and Participant's responsibilities. The full liability release for the trip itself will be provided with the application and must be signed before the trip start date.

This document is not legal advice. Participants are encouraged to read it carefully and ask Conor questions before paying.

2. The Trip in brief

The Trip is a six-day men's backpacking retreat in the Pecos Wilderness of northern New Mexico, with three nights on trail and two nights at Black Canyon Campground (Santa Fe National Forest, 8,400 ft). The Trip is limited to ten (10) participants and is intended for men who are honestly oriented toward the five Heart and Sword tenets listed in Section 7.

Group activities include backpacking, camping, men's-work facilitation, opening and closing fire circles, and unstructured time at high alpine lakes between 10,800 ft and 11,745 ft. An optional pre-dawn summit of Santa Fe Baldy (12,622 ft) is available on Day 3 for participants choosing to do so.

Full trip itinerary, day-by-day, is on the trip landing page.

3. The deposit

A $500 deposit reserves your spot. The deposit is non-refundable, except in the case of application failure as defined in Section 5 below.

Trip price (deposit plus balance) varies by registration window:

  • Super Early Bird -- $1,200 total. Registration window: June 1 -- 15, 2026. Balance after deposit: $700.
  • Early Bird -- $1,500 total. Registration window: June 16 -- July 31, 2026. Balance after deposit: $1,000.
  • Standard -- $2,000 total. Registration after July 31, 2026. Balance after deposit: $1,500.

Balance is due by July 1, 2026. Balance is refundable up to 30 days before the trip start (June 27, 2026). Balance is non-refundable after June 27, 2026.

4. The application process

After the deposit is paid, H&S will send Participant a written application within 72 hours. The application asks about:

  • Physical fitness, backcountry experience, current and recent activity level
  • Medical history relevant to backcountry travel and altitude (including any history of acute mountain sickness, high-altitude cerebral or pulmonary edema, cardiovascular conditions, or other altitude-sensitive conditions)
  • Psychological readiness, including any active mental health concerns that could be material to the safety of a remote backcountry trip
  • Familiarity with and honest orientation toward the five Heart and Sword tenets (Section 7)
  • Any other context Conor needs to assess fit and safety

The application must be returned no later than fourteen (14) days after Participant pays the deposit. H&S reviews and decides on each application within seven (7) days of receipt.

5. Application failure and deposit refund

If H&S determines, at Conor's sole and reasonable discretion, that Participant is not a fit for this Trip, the application is deemed a failure and the $500 deposit is refunded in full within fourteen (14) business days via the same payment method used to pay it.

Application failure can occur for any of the following reasons:

  • Participant is deemed not physically fit for sustained backcountry hiking at altitude (carrying a 25 -- 35 lb pack, multiple miles per day, sustained climbs at elevations of 10,000 -- 11,745 ft)
  • Participant is deemed not psychologically fit for the remote setting and group container of this Trip (for example: active suicidality, untreated psychosis, severe untreated PTSD, or other concerns that this trip is not equipped to safely contain)
  • Participant declines to engage honestly with the Heart and Sword tenets in Section 7
  • Participant's application is materially incomplete or untruthful
  • Other safety, group-cohesion, or fit concerns at Conor's discretion

H&S is not required to disclose specific reasons for a non-fit determination. The decision is final. Participants who are refunded under this section are welcome to inquire about future trips that may be a better fit.

6. Personal responsibility

The Trip involves real risks. Backcountry travel at high altitude -- in lightning-, weather-, and wildlife-exposed terrain -- can result in injury, illness, or death. Participant acknowledges and accepts that:

  • Participant is one hundred percent (100%) responsible for their own safety. This includes their own physical conditioning before the trip, hydration and nutrition on trail, gear management, decision-making at each step, and any choice to attempt optional activities (for example: the Santa Fe Baldy summit on Day 3).
  • Conor will do his best to keep Participant safe, including ongoing weather monitoring, group safety briefings, lightning protocol drills, route management, water management, bear-aware food storage, and a satellite communicator carried for emergencies. Conor cannot guarantee safety, and his best effort does not transfer responsibility for Participant's well-being from Participant to H&S or to Conor.
  • Backcountry rescue is not on-demand. Cell service is unavailable in the wilderness. Evacuation, if needed, may take hours to days depending on weather, terrain, and aircraft availability.
  • Participant agrees to follow Conor's instructions on safety matters during the Trip, including (but not limited to) weather and lightning protocol, water filtering, bear-aware food storage, and any decision to alter the route, hold position, or evacuate.

A full liability release will be sent with the application and must be signed before the Trip start date. The Service Agreement does not replace that liability release.

7. The Heart and Sword tenets

Heart and Sword is shaped by five orientations. Participant is asked to be honestly oriented toward each of them. Participant does not need to have them fully embodied -- only to be honestly facing in their direction.

These tenets are the foundation of the H&S container. Participant should familiarize themselves with each one before paying the deposit.

Fatherhood. You are a father, will be one, or want to be one. The arc of fatherhood -- past, present, or future -- is part of how you orient your life.

Sobriety. Not in the AA sense. Everyone has compulsions -- substances, screens, scrolling, anything that pulls you out of contact with what's real. All of us share an interest in more presence, fewer escapes.

Sexual integrity. A commitment to maturing in how you use your sexuality -- pornography, the way you look at women, dating patterns without desire for partnership, how sexual energy moves through your life. Not shame-based. Maturation-based.

A higher power. Non-denominational. No script. Something bigger than you, called on to create sacred space.

Sacred space. Every Heart and Sword container -- retreat, group, gathering -- is held as sacred space for men. This is non-negotiable.

8. What the deposit and Trip price do not cover

The deposit and Trip price cover what is listed on the trip landing page (group gear, food on trail, facilitation, route, permits, satellite communicator, group safety equipment). They do not cover:

  • Travel to and from Black Canyon Campground (flights, shuttles, gas, rideshare)
  • Personal gear (clothing, hiking boots, water bottles, personal hygiene items, personal medications)
  • Lodging before or after the Trip in Santa Fe, Albuquerque, or elsewhere
  • Travel insurance (strongly recommended)
  • Medical care or evacuation costs if Participant requires them
  • Any incidental costs from voluntary route changes or an early exit from the Trip

9. Cancellation by Participant

  • Before the application is reviewed: Participant may cancel at any time. The deposit is non-refundable in this case unless the application has been determined to be a failure under Section 5.
  • After application acceptance, before June 27, 2026: Balance paid (if any) is refundable. Deposit remains non-refundable.
  • On or after June 27, 2026: Both deposit and balance are non-refundable. Participant is welcome to send a replacement participant if H&S approves the replacement under Section 5.

10. Cancellation or alteration by Heart and Sword

If H&S cancels the Trip in full prior to start (for example: wildfire closure of Pecos Wilderness, weather emergency, force majeure event, or illness preventing Conor from leading), Participant is refunded the full amount paid (deposit plus any balance already paid).

If the Trip starts and is then shortened or altered for safety reasons (weather, injury, evacuation), no partial refund is owed, but H&S will work in good faith with Participant on any reasonable accommodation.

11. Force majeure

H&S is not liable for events outside its reasonable control, including but not limited to: wildfires, government closure of Pecos Wilderness or Santa Fe National Forest, severe weather, pandemic-related restrictions, war, or other force majeure events. If such an event prevents the Trip, Section 10 applies.

12. Governing law and disputes

This agreement is governed by the laws of the State of Texas. Any dispute arising under it shall be resolved first by good-faith negotiation between Participant and Heart and Sword LLC. If negotiation fails, disputes shall be resolved through binding arbitration in Travis County, Texas, under the Commercial Arbitration Rules of the American Arbitration Association.

13. Acknowledgment

By paying the $500 deposit, Participant acknowledges:

  1. Participant has read this Deposit and Service Agreement in full.
  2. Participant has familiarized themselves with the Heart and Sword tenets in Section 7.
  3. Participant accepts personal responsibility for their own safety per Section 6.
  4. Participant understands the deposit is non-refundable except in the case of application failure under Section 5.
  5. Participant agrees to complete the application within fourteen (14) days of paying the deposit.
  6. Participant agrees to sign the full liability release (sent with the application) before the Trip start date.

Heart and Sword LLC reserves the right to modify this agreement before payment. The version of the agreement in effect at the time of payment is the version that governs.


Important note

This document is a service agreement between the Participant and Heart and Sword LLC. It is not legal advice and does not replace the full trip liability release sent with the application. Participants are encouraged to read the agreement carefully before paying the deposit and to ask Conor any questions before doing so.


  • Document version: v1.0 (2026-05-29)
  • Trip: New Mexico Backpacking Retreat, July 27 -- August 1, 2026
  • Issued by: Heart and Sword LLC
  • Contact: Conor McMillen
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